I get it... I was one of those people who would shut my eyes and feel more chaotic.  I felt more anxious and sometimes very frightened and agitated.  Meditating seemed to make things worse rather than better. I muscled my way through the practices because I heard it could help.  And I was sure I'd already tried everything else.  

The way meditation was taught when I first found these practices 15 years ago wasn't trauma-informed. 

Whether you know you have an eating disorder or are thinking you might have one, a good idea is to get an assessment from a mental health professional who specializes in eating disorders.  A good assessment should take at least three sessions (in my professional opinion) so that the therapist can get as full of a picture as possible when trying to help you understand yourself and your eating disorder better.

For psychology purposes, the word "Somatic" encompasses many modalities, orientations and schools of thought.  Somatic refers to the body.  Memories, thoughts and emotions are stored in the body.  When we are telling a story about the past, the body experiences it as if it is happening in the present moment.